If I could, I would.

I hear noises that sound like your soft knocking at my door but the hall is empty. I slide my hand to the spot where you should be in my bed but it is cold. Opening my door I hope I see you sitting in my living room waiting but you're not.I turn on my computer and hope that I have a message from you but there is nothing. I try and smile but it seems so forced. I go to call you and I have to remind myself that I can't. This is my doing. This is what I chose and yet it feels like my heart is shattered. I wish I could take it back but there is nothing I can say or do to fix this. I feel lost. More lonely than I have ever felt before.