Done.....

I am done with putting myself out there time and time again and getting nothing but hurt. I am sick of being passed over and then used when it is convenient. Put on the shelf to be played with when all the other dolls are broken. Smiling pretty while I decay. I want to be the one to use. No emotion just empty fucking space. Taking what I want and leaving in the morning. Why do I have to give a fuck about how it makes others feel? It never seems to matter how I feel. I am angry at everything right now. I know there are good people in this world. I know that they do not deserve to be hurt. Why bother weeding through the trash n the city street? I don't want to love. I have 2 kids that deserve my love. nobody else gets to come in. Stay the fuck behind that wall.